Trans Covenant School shooter referred to Columbine killers, herself as 'gods,' stated wish to 'kill all the white kids': report

Journalist Megyn Kelly revealed on Monday that she had obtained over 1,000 pages of writings left behind by Nashville Covenant School shooter Audrey Hale, with the never-before-published pages providing "clear insight into the depraved mind of a killer."

On her morning show, Kelly read out portions of the writing, including a passage written in the one of the final pages before the attack that stated, "I have to kill so I can be remembered in the most horrific way possible that no one will ever forget," with Hale signing off under the name Aiden, Hale’s preferred male name. 

Kelly said the pages, which her team reviewed over the weekend, "detail a deeply disturbed individual planning meticulously over years to carry out a mass shooting and then kill herself. The killer discusses her autism diagnosis, race, and her desire for 'black love' and acceptance, as well as her hatred of her own whiteness."

Many pages had content that was "sexual in nature," including "frustration with her virginity," and also included information about Hale’s guns and training with firearms, as well as references to other school shootings.

Kelly said that Hale referred to the Columbine school shooters as "gods," and the words "dark abyss" frequently pop up in the writings, either directly in the writings or in the margins, alongside "an image resembling a radioactive symbol, the logo created by the killer to represent her all-consuming depression and commitment to gaining notoriety via a mass shooting."

In one entry dated April 12, 2022, titled "let kids choose their sex," Hale wrote, "I only wore some nice girl clothes as a cover-up from the truth, which I denied myself all these years. And I hated all of it. It was miserable being raised a girl because I had no choice. There was lack of education, research, and medicine to help society or parents better understand transgender."

The entry continued, "I didn’t know trans existed. I thought you could only be gay or bi and that’s the fate you had. But transgender is transcending way deeper to the core. There is still medicine to be approved by the FDA, and so little research has been done. If I had puberty blockers back then, I would have transitioned a long time ago, but I didn’t know you could possibly change your sex."

"I’m mad that no one told me until I was 22. I feel I’m too old and too late to become a man. Now, the process takes months to years. By the time that happens, I’m 30, and then 10 years later I got a bald spot on my head and looked like an old man. Hell no. It’s best to start at 16 for shots, but my youth is over way past now, and it’s over." 

"How dare God hand me a training bra when I didn’t know WTF it was? As a kid, I hated it much more. I’d like to dispose my vagina. We should all choose our gender."

The next page was titled "trans man," Kelly said, with the passage reading, "I knew I was a boy the moment first memories and development formed. Being a tomboy wasn’t a phase. Parents forced children into which the way (sic) they were biologically born. I don’t care what authority says, but no adult is fair when they don’t let their children want to choose being a boy or girl, because they think children don’t know anything."

One page was titled "killer list," and was a list of those who perpetrated the Columbine, Sandy Hook, and Parkland school shootings as well as the DC snipers, Jeffrey Dahmer, Tim McVeigh, Jim Jones, and others. 

The writings also included printed-out pages taped to the journal titled "I hate the American people," with Hale writing, "white people who want to take away instead of adding more. What do you call that? America is not the land of the free, it’s a land full of idiots. It will only get worse in this country, not near enough gods like me. America and its people all destined to soon be destroyed." 

In a passage read by Kelly on her show, dated June 6 2021, Hale wrote that Columbine shooters Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold were "gods. All those little dumb sh*ts in other school shootings during the 1990s were not gods, just cowards, even if maybe they had a reason, they left it a mystery. I realized that after knowing Columbine, I immediately became attached to it, not just the notorious outcome but the preceding evidence leading up to it."

"I feel I am the reincarnation of Dylan Klebold. My thoughts of depression are forever linked to his and my experience as well." 

Another entry stated, "kill all the white kids. Kill my own race" and "destroy all the white people who are teachers. Let all the black kids go unless, if I don’t like you." 

One entry written months later said, "black people were given fate, given nothing, while white people get power in the White House, have all the privileges, even to white people like me. White people are born with privileges. Black people aren’t." Hale later added, "being white sucks, but being black is so cool. Black people should rule. White people should fall, every white person who lived and died. I hate you all."